Runaway

Prose and Poem {A collection of love, despair, tragedy and more} Part II

And If I runaway, who will look after you? 
who will protect you? 
who will rescue you? 

I know you're exhausted 
And if I give up on you, 
How will you survive? 

The bleeding didn't stop the demons, 
The crying didn't stop the demons, 
I prayed and I cried
My heart squeezed every time
Forced blood out of my mouth 

Everyday feels like walking closer to needles 
prickling my insides 
Digging deep and deep and deeper 

There is no place to stay anymore 
To call home
I've been running 
Longing 
To find one
To rescue myself 

I wait outside the door 
suffocating as i continue to listen 
The demons don't stop 
are you doing okay inside? 

I don't call for your name 
the demons would come after me 
you want to protect me 
I want to protect myself
So I wait outside 

The days feel like eternity 
It's all so musky 
I cut my finger first 
To feel the misery 

You  locked me in the room 
So he doesn't reach me 
take me into the world 
you were forced

It's a rollercoaster 
The space 
The one families take their kids to 
Click pictures as they get wet from water, scream from the darkness 
I was screaming too 
The sweat splashed like water 

Standing up was never an option 
Not for you 
Not for me 
So i sat here 
Hours passed by 
I moved my eyes for the first time 

The ashy sky resembled your face 
The imperfect lines beneath the surface of stars 
Like the scars in your haunted gaze

The white foam out of your mouth 
was what i imagined peace 
you finally found yours 
and i will 
once i join you. 

                                                                           End. 

Painting by: Linda Vachon